I am having doubts. I was under the impression that I was happy not having anyone close to me. But my last therapy made me reexamine my thoughts and I now believe that perhaps I want someone by my side after all. It seems like finding a partner is the solution to the problem but...

I'm an adult. I'm poor. I have neglected social activities all my life. I have never made an effort to make myself likable to people. I have never had a close relationship with a woman. I don't even have friends any more. I don't even know how to build rapport with a woman...

To be honest I don't even know how I come across in real life, I think I come across as being "normal," but it's obvious that on paper I come across as a legitimate mental case.

But the problem is that I went to therapy because I wanted help solving another problem but I came out of it with a painful wound that I am desperate to heal but when I remember the reality of my life I despair because this is a problem that probably cannot even be solved

But since whining is not going to solve my problem, what should I do?

Should I pay to have sex with prostitutes and hope that those encounters will help me gain confidence when I am around women? Or should I just hope that sex with prostitutes will heal the wound?

Should I save money and get a plastic surgery?

Should I find women that I don't feel attracted to and attempt to attract them?

Should I pay thousands of dollars to go to one of those seminars where they teach socially incompetent men how to attract women?

I'm just trying to find a practical solution to the problem...