Maybe you'd like to try going to therapy with a different therapist now, and work on your relationship issues. It often happens that one goes to therapy for a certain issue but there are some other, underlying problems that surface in the process. It seems to me that you are working through all this, towards a good solution. Well done on that! I certainly think that learning to build a stable, reciprocal relationship in your real life is going to make you happier and is a good goal for you.