wasn't so bad, after all. it was only a half hour, so he didn't spend much time shredding me. just at the first, where he said stuff about me not being able to live up to my potential and needing helping with my coping skills to be a better mother/support to my H.....not so bad, just hard on my pride that he thinks I am not insightful enough, haven't coped as well as I thought I have with all the issues I have and have been sitting around moldering instead of being functional and productive! ah well.....it doesn't matter, he doesn't know me.....as he said, he is mostly concerned with my highs and lows and with regulating my medicine dosage. and yes, he is upping the dose, but I can take it in the eve. and that should help. he also gave me some samples and some info on a copay program because of the cost of my meds; so that was actually quite nice. he's not so bad, just very, very blunt, direct, and somewhat stern, neither sympathetic nor completely unsympathetic.
so thanks for riding along, it was nice to have company with me he couldn't see!