Ok, so my issues are still very much in the present and I'm going to be dealing with them for a while, but...

A support person was reviewing the events in my childhood that led up to the current situation, so I could outline them for my T next week, and it finally dawned on me that I was just a little kid then. The thing I felt most guilty about started in elementary school! There's NO WAY that crud could have been MY fault, no matter how matter how many arguments I can come up with to the contrary! I was NOT the adult making the decisions back then!

OMG!!! I am SO looking forward to the appt with my T on Friday! I want to surprise him by just going in and sitting down with a big ol' grin on my face!