I can very much relate to your fantasy also (((huge hugs)))...it's kind of like, even though we know the likihood of it happening is so slim, we keep holding out hope for these things.

I have fantasies about being with my T long term for as long as I feel I need or want, that my T would tell me I was important to her, that I got a hug or some form of affection when I am crying my eyes out over something, that she would share a little more of herself, that she would extend the session, that she would reply to contacts made between sessions and accept them as normal, ah the list is endless.....and probably more chance of pigs flying for me