I understand your fantasies. But, won't your T let you email your feelings and/or leave voice messages? I don't think that's a fantasy, but a realistic need for you. I'm sorry she won't let you email as much as you need to. You just left her 2 messages. Will she be upset with you for them?

I think it's important to tell our Ts what fantasies we have about them. I never did that freely with my other Ts, but I do with this one. It helps to know that she accepts them. She really liked my fantasy about being a baby kangeroo and staying in her pouch all day! She made me feel that it's okay to have such fantasies about her, and made me not obsess about them.