Wow, what a great personal story, thanks for telling us! I love those moments when we realize something big about therapy/our therapist and get a new perspective to work with and give it our all. My therapist said something early in therapy (responded well to what I was thinking when I didn't even realize I was thinking it) that changed my willingness to work with her (or any therapist) and I kept working on it for another 30 years until I got what I had come for