really gotta find better way to live...this isn't working...I can't take the drugs...oh they work at first but then I end up barfing and getting dizzy and then the anxiety kicks in and more depression....paxil for the d...I was supposed to go for an evaluation on monday I think...but by the time i convinced myself to go it was too late...but then what does it matter really when you look at it logically...I can't think of anything worth staying alive for...if I weren't such a coward I...why do i think like that...because it all looks hopeless...so many people tell me that I am worthwhile...why can't I see it...I tried to stay out of here with this and only write good things...