sundog, i suppose it would be like a worry stone, although i'm not a hundred percent sure what that is? She gave it to me for 'grounding' myself when i become dissociative, but said it can be used for calming, too. It's smooth and pink and pretty and came in a white pull-tie carrying case. And yeah, i didn't try the butterfly hook yesterday, as yoga brought me down a bit, but i think i need to do it right.. about... now... !!!! (just woke up crying from a nap and had the most horrible, vivid dream ever that still has me shaking and upset). Yes, the epival increase-connection is interesting. I will give it a few more days to see if this is just an 'initial' side effect that dissipates on it's own (and TMI my period is due soon so i want to see if this could also be related to that, either. )

Thank you Cyran0 for the support. I keep thinking of you too and hoping things start looking up soon for you!