you've let nobody down here on PC. We're all struggling and it takes time for new habits to be second nature. I think you're doing great and you shouldn't beat yourself up just because you used a bad coping skill.

It's like learning anything in the world. We study, we practice, we experiment, we try to apply our knowledge but it's a life long exercise. I don't believe that we'll ever stop needing help in any endeavor we embark on. So, why should our mental health abilities be any different?