Hey folks, I’m new here and I feel the spontaneous urge to spill my guts out since I can’t exactly talk about my problems to anyone else so… Let the fun begin. I wake up nearly every morning feeling anxious and spend a majority of my day trying to tell myself that my fears are completely unfounded. I seem to collect fears like some people collect stamps. So far the “fear list” consists of the following: 1. doing something that will defy God. 2. Spreading germs around and subsequently making someone sick (which is ridiculous—I’m perfectly healthy). 3. Running someone over with my car (every time my car hits a pothole I have to check the rearview mirror just to make sure that everything is ok). And 4. Hurting someone (again, this is totally stupid. I would never hurt anyone). Along with others. My hands hurt like heck because they’re all chapped and bleeding from washing them too much. Ugh… This sucks. I made a screening appointment at the health center at my school because this is just getting out of hand; but I haven’t told any of my friends or family that I think I might have a problem. I dunno… I guess I’m scared what people will think of me if I tell them. I don’t want to be treated like some kind of freak. Still, even that would be a small price to pay if I was able to feel even marginally better. Sometimes I just break down and cry because I feel so trapped.

Sorry if this sounds like I’m whining and/or complaining. I just had to get this stuff off my chest.