Are you an adult now? If so it's time to do the hard ahead of you without blaming your mom. In fact forgiveness will actually strengthen you. Can you forgive and move forward?

I understand how SSRIs can kill the sex drive but how is this a problem if you don't have any partners now? I mean we may have to make some trade-offs...

Also, there are some women that would find a guy like you very interesting. They could care less about how your plumbing works and would like your passive "trained" nature. You sound young so it's worth experimenting with some alternative styles to see if you find a fit. Companionship of some stripe will relieve a lot of your angst and you may find others with similar stories you can relate too. That might be a happier use of a Saturday night.