I just took a break from T (well, I guess technically, I'm still taking it), and I was surprised to find how much of him I had internalized. I felt really close to him when I would know how to handle a situation, or when I would find myself being gentle with myself, because those are things I learned from him. Although I am going back after the break, it gave me a taste of what it could be like when therapy is over...that it could really be okay. And that, I think, it WILL be okay.

I am VERY attached to T and I love him very much. Somehow those feelings remain, even when he is not physically with me. And my deep connection with T has led me to want to connect with others while I've been on this break. Of course, the connection will never be the same, but my connection with T has opened my eyes to the connections that ARE available to me outside of his office.

So, for me, I really DO think that last stage is acceptance, and not loneliness. I think we can get there.