Yes many times i have thought about going off my meds..I miss who i was and my Life. When i was told i might have bipoler i just laughed and said not me...I thought i was in control and could do anything.WRONG! It started getting out of control..The episodes were coming so fast i couldnt keep up...Anyway i was diagnosed in 2007.Was told i was a rapid cycler.. But like you i often wonder what it would be like if i went off my meds..God i miss that freedom.I miss being the person that felt so care free.Every day was good...I loved the boucey feeling i always had..If i get it now ( which is not enough) i hang on to it for as long as i can..When i mention going off my meds ...My husband says "Not a good Idea" .Here's a question...Say you go off your meds...and things start getting out of control...When you go back on your meds..How long before they start working again?? Does it depend on how long you've been on them? Or how long you were off them?