Oh Cyran0. I'm sorry to hear that ur day wasn't to good. It absolutely sucks the anxiety. I hate that feeling, continuously fighting yourself all day long and that there alone exhausted ya.
I sit there all the time saying the same thing all the time. I just want ME back. I just want to be normal and fearless. I now look at other people and think I wish I could do that or I wounder if there struggling. I just want to be able to sit at home or at my girlfriends house for 1 night and be able to have a few drinks. I can't even do that anymore as it will set me off having a panic attack. I can't go for a drive with out feeling anxious. Now I sit and wonder am I going to be able to work again soon.... But then I sit there and say to myself after all those negative thoughts and find a tiny positive one and think If I have beaten this before then I sure as **** am gana do it again! I hope u have a better day tommorrow