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Open Eyes · Apr 08, 2011, 11:15 AM

I am sorry to see so many bad experiences with hospitals but there was one good one and that person is now part of that system. Maybe we should find her and go to that hospital, even if we have to take a plane to get there.

In my experience I did not even know what PTSD was, never heard it but should have. I didn't even know what a trigger was and once I did know that explained a lot. I am not a spring chicken so I really get angry that I went so long without real help. And, my family didn't even know what PTSD was either.

I think there should be another disorder catagory called Current Traumatic Stess Disorder. Because I was experiencing current events that were clearly overwhelming me to the point that I had to go somewhere to get help. I have experienced many traumatic events in my life but never saw checking out altogether as an option until my Current Traumatic Stress happened.

I have a lot of anger for what I was put thru at my very weakest point in life. I have even more anger when I read other peoples bad experiences that were even worse than mine.

At least some of these other people knew they were addressing PTSD.
At least some of these other people knew what triggers were.

I have written a lot of angry letters that I never sent because somehow,
I thought the anger would show thru and the letter would only be dismissed as some letter from a sick mentally unstable person.

I can totally relate to you hippeabea with the pin and string and especially the flimsy blanket that was not warm at all. How is it that is can be written in books and journals that people in our state of mind feel very cold, tired, frightened, anxious, depressed, extremely guilty for feeling what we are feeling and need all the warmth, kindness, rest, and calming care that we can possibly get.

Every day I have that thought in the back of my head, some of that anger that just won't let go. I am so very moved by all the people here trying so hard to overcome their pain.

I have, all of my life, been determined to understand the pain of others, and my own pain. I took it very seriously and was determined to not just sit with it but to find a way to get through it and past it. And, I did motivate many other people that crossed my path. People that saw me gaining and doing and it encouraged them to do the same.

There has got to be a way to address how people at their weakest point can be addressed properly in a hospital. There has to be a way we can write our concerns about this, rattle a cage where the people who are in charge of these places will be forced to listen and aknowledge that something is not being handled right.

Who is it that sets the standards for treatment in these hospitals?
I think of Cyran0 and how he writes and condenses things into a product that will be understood and presented correctly. I wonder if we can somehow join together and express our experiences and how our needs were not met or understood and even caused us further trauma. Some message that is heard and not dismissed as coming from just a crazy person.

I wish we could go on 60 minutes and somehow show how we were all treated and how it was not right. How there really has to be a safe place for us. A place where if we get really bad again, we know we will be taken care of.

I almost don't want to talk about the bad experiences and make someone think that they have no place to go. I was prevented from not hurting myself but it could have been addressed so much better. And, I cannot say that all places are bad. But, I do recommend that one be aware of what they are dealing with so they can say it when they can't seem to deal another day.

Open Eyes