I have no opinions anymore when it comes to anything in the marraige anymore. He makes all the decisions. The one reason why I still have the internet is because he said he will give it to me for my birthday gift. I dont look for that to hold true. So if I suddenly dont show up one day here. You all know what happened.

I am and have been slowly losing myself here. I just feel so sick. I try to be a good person , I have my bad days and I cant help it anymore than anyone else can. And I am sorry for the mistakes I have made in all my relationships. I apologize to all of you . I hope you can find it one day to forgive me. Please take care of you!

I love you all, and thanks for all your help, love and support.You've been truely wonderful.

Hugz~
bethy