I've been with Justin off and on for going on 6 months Feb. 8th... We've been living together for almost a month now and it's been complete HELL. I wanted so bad to move out of my parents home because of the crap I've been through in this house. Went through years of sexual abuse in my parents home and me and my dad fought pretty much daily up until I moved. So I moved in with Justin, thinking it'd be so much better. I was so wrong.

Since moving in with him, I've become one of those miserable "house-wives"... I get woke up every morning before 7am to him screaming at me, "Go run my bath water!" "Go fix my breakfast!" "Clean this pig sty up now!"... I do so much for him and wouldn't complain if it was appreciated, but it's not. Not a day goes by that he doesn't call me names all throughout the day. My name isn't Stacy anymore... I dont get called baby or sweetheart. I get called a c*nt, a ******, a *****, a slut, any name he can think of to call me. We got into an arguement the other day while I was driving and he choked me. I wrecked my car. Not bad, but he choked me until I couldn't see straight so I ran off the road into a deep ditch. That's the first time he put his hands on me... Since then he's started hitting me on the arms when he gets angry and pushes me. I DON'T want to go back home and I DON'T want to leave him. I really do love him. I never thought I'd go through this crap again but here I am. I know what I need to do, which is leave... But where to? How am I supposed to make it without him? *sigh* I'm so miserable.