THANK Y'ALL for the encouragement and the suggestions. I am going to work on it this weekend to get going, prepared and practice will be my motto and that I CAN do this! I used to this for my job, I can do this again.

I have been freaking out b/c at the end of my last job as a trainer/educator (which I loved) in corporate/medical, my BP was bad. The trainees noticed how "off" of a person I was to say the least, in the last few months before I resigned. Lately symptoms have returned and I have even been considering withdrawing from school because of it. I am working with doc and T in the process, yet it seemed a curious coincidence. Hopefully meds will level out in the next week/two that it will not be as evident. Normally I can stay under the radar by not having to give presentations or do any public speaking. It is why I had to change careers.

Still freaking out but the positive is starting to come back to me with your help. Thanks again.