I have this unreasonable hope and fantasy of T. I keep wishing she would give me more time. Even she admitted today that 50 minutes is not enough.

In my fantasy, she would say to me, "Suratji, I see that you have a lot on your mind and I would like you to stay each session an extra 30 minutes without charge. Also, I think it would be good for you to be able to email me regularly with your thoughts and feelings. And don't hesitate to leave voice messages as often as you'd like"

Man, I would feel like I had died and gone to heaven if that fantasy ever came true.