I get the part about grieving what your T will never be. But what about grieving what your T is.................. that is, when you have to end? I am faced with the possibility of doing that much sooner than I expected. My T is, has been, wonderful. I "just barely got" to the point that I am opening up, holding nothing back, trusting, etc. and because of circumstances I don't want to get into I may be done in 6 to 8 weeks. It is not my T's doing, just circumstances. I might be able to work again with him in 8 weeks, after that, whoo hooo. I am in the middle of being at the place of the most vulnerable right now and I'm sure I won't be done in 6 to 8 weeks. I am still trying to figure out how to get those feelings from myself, is that even possible? Someone earlier on this forum posted that transference for them was "about the way they feel about themselves when they were with T". Is it possible to have that feeling, that powerful, on your own? I am not willing to work with someone else and start the process over. Not feeling too great right now.