(((((((HalfSwede))))))) Sleepless nights are the pits. I'm sorry you had one last night.

I can really relate to lying awake in bed and replaying triggering situations in my mind. I hate when I do that. Sleep then becomes pretty much impossible, especially if I'm angry. I do know what you mean also about anger giving you a sense of power. That's one of the seductive things about anger.......But then, as you say, you tend to crash afterwards.

I guess I just wanted to say I can really relate to what you write here. But I don't think any of this means that the insights you've gained at PC have been for nothing. It's just that, unfortunately, crappy days still happen, especially after a night of messed up sleep.

I hope tonight is better and that you have more energy to devote to your paper tomorrow. In the meantime, spending today quietly surfing and taking it easy sounds like a good plan ((((((((((HalfSwede))))))))))))