well guys.

I have figured some stuff out. Not a whole lot. But its a start.

So far they think that I definetly have some personality issues. The psychiatrist that i saw identified traits of dependant and avoidant personaility disorder. Now theres a kicker eh?

as well, over christmas, I sort of had a bit of a breakdown and a little came out and talked , well.. i dunno if thats the best way to describe it but its the best way that I can think of.

she wont tell how old she is, but she feels like she may be around six or seven. shes really frightened and from what I can tell she hides alot, and has been hiding for a long long long time..

It is starting to make sense now though the times that i cant remember.. like these big memory blanks..

So i am taking it one day at a time. Its going well though.