I'm pretty sure I asked T to let me know as soon as possible if she's wanting to terminate when I left message last night and she still hasn't returned my call.

Maybe that means she isn't wanting to terminate. I'm having the craziest emotions right now. I'm feeling like I want revenge and next week at session I just won't be my normal free-flowing talkative self. That she'll have to do the talking. That will show her!! What the hey am I thinking? This is so irrational, even I am blown away. Boy, am I ever working out RL dynamics with her!!

I am also a confirmed stalker. Her office is 2 minutes from my house and on the way home tonight I drove the block off just to see if her car was parked there. Even considering how embarrassed I'd be if she happened to see me driving by didn't deter me. Stalking is against the law, right?

Yep, and another amazing emotion appeared in my body. I was jealous that she was with another client. Man oh man, what is going on with me?? If anyone who knows me knew my crazy thoughts now, they would go running for the hills to get as far away from me as possible.