Well today was the most ferociously anxiety ridden day I've had in about a week, complete with a late afternoon total panic freak out. I literally hid in my cubicle waiting to see if I was going to die (hey, seemed very possible at the time). I tried to do breathing exercises as my heart pounded my lungs like tympani's but it was way too intense. I just sat and sat, trying not to whimper.

But that was just the big freak out. The whole day was anxiety of the highest order and it was all because of that stupid court appointment. Before and during had anxiety for obvious reasons while after had anxiety because of something our lawyer said (the short version, we only have two weeks to work something out on our house or we have to give it up as part of the bankruptcy). I wanted to talk to my wife afterwards but she was poker faced and didn't want to talk (kind of her way) and that just made it worse.

As I type this I'm still anxious but that's being overshadowed by total exhaustion.

It was a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day. I think I'll go to Australia.

Cyran0