Hey James I have read and seen your other posts in here,..I do not always comment cause sometimes I have nothing to say that matters...or someone beats me to what I would say...I am thinking you need a PDOC that is a psychiarist they do the meds best and can DX you rather fast and well....I think meds would help with the circle thinking, paranoia and voices....and new SI..see I DO read all....
On the gay fears....ya know you MAY??? may be... bi or bi CURIOUS and thats way normal if normal is real...I know a lotta folks who have been or are bi curious....Be easy on yourself

HUGS