I am so ashamed! I have horrible thoughts in my head. Maybe it will just take time to feel the relief?

My head, my body, and my heart have been three separate entities for so long. I can rattle off my "story" like it's the evening news. My head always takes charge and leaves my heart safe. Sharing what is in my heart is new and frightening... I feel like I'm losing it. All these pieces exposed and vulnerable. I'm not sure I can do it.