Pretty much nothing has changed. I could possibly be getting worse. I'm trying to cope with depression, shaky self esteem, anxiety and the constant need to escape this dull reality by dreaming. I decided to post something again to keep myself from going completely mad lol. I'm getting some type of treatment so maybe things will get better. I'm trying to stay optimistic but it's sooo f@&king hard. Sometimes I feel like I'm in a small room and the four walls are depression, anxiey etc. I feel like those walls are closing in on me sometimes and I feel suffocated. I'm at a point where I don't have alot of hope. I feel like the life is being sucked out of me. I'm gonna try to keep going, somehow.