Hi So Punk Rock, I read you blog.... you said "but I'm like a *$#@' 1000 pound crocodile: resilient as hell" lol I love that quote. Keep holding on, Keep fighting... with an attitude like that you will beat this thing and be able to tell others how it was done. Know that you're not alone, millions of us face this battle as well. Get that guitar that you showed interest in (mentioned in your blog) we must keep fighting. Stay encouraged.