I understand how you feel bc I have been doing the same thing with my smoking cigarettes. I am so finicky. One day I think "I'm done with this!" and an hour later I'm thinking "what's so wrong with having a few cigarettes a day? I'm young, I should be allowed to!" and it goes back and forth.

I think the thing is to find your triggers that cause you to thin about it. Honestly, when I'm at home, I only think about having a cig when I'm just sitting here not doing anything and I'm bored. When I'm working I can go hours without thinking about it. When I'm on campus (it's non-smoking) I go just about all day without having one. So I know my stressers and that has helped me cut down to less than half a pack a day (from over a pack a day).

I know it's cigarettes and not weed but the mental addiction is the same. I feel nervous if I know I only have one left and start thinking how am I going to get through the day without it?! And it ends up consuming my day.....

People say marijuana isn't physically addicting but it is. Your body produces its own cannabinoids which is what THC mimics. When you begin having these other cannabinoids, your body stops producing its own - just like nicotine and acetylcholine. If you try and quit cold turkey most likely you will go through some terrible mood swings, maybe become depressed and end up relapsing and feel terrible about yourself.

I suggest cutting down over time to allow your body to recover its own natural chemicals. And the most important thing - everyone slips up. If you relapse, don't beat yourself up. Think about it like a GPS. When you get off track all it says is "please do such and such to get back on route" and that's all you have to do. Having a slip up and smoking is NOT the end of the world and it DOESN'T mean you're a terrible person. It means you're human - just focus on getting back on track! Good luck!