(((((((CyranO))))))))
I'm so sorry for all that you're going through. I only now saw this thread or I would have chimed in days ago. For you to have garnered so much love and support here reflects the quality of the man that you are. Your plate is heaped full, and yet you give so much to others at PC and I'm sure, in your life. I really hope that you get a break from the suffering, and soon. I relate to the feelings of the dailyness of grinding anxiety and sadness, and the belief that it will go on without end. I know that your art is alive and well within you. Depression, that beast, suppresses it. Sending you love and well wishes.