{{{Melissa}}}

Yes, what you are experiencing is not unusual after a hospitalization and severe episode. It always takes me some time to get used to being in the "outside world" after I've been in the hospital for a while.

Something else to consider, and something that was explained to me after a particularly difficult episode, is that you may be going through a bit of PTSD of sorts. When you are feeling sui**dal, your psyche recognizes that your life is in danger on some level, and you can actually experience it as a traumatic event.

If you are able to, try to take it easy for a while. Be gentle with yourself and try not to take on too much all at once. Give yourself some time - you'll get there.