I really hate myself at the moment, I am not a good person, and my husband should leave me, actually everyone should leave me. I am better off alone. I always thought I was a good person deep down but it seems everywhere I go and no matter what I do, ppl end up hating me or getting fed up with me, which inturn makes me hate myself even more. I feel like such a failure and I had all these good things planned, like an OU course which I now have all the material for. I am not even going to say what its doing as I will feel stupid, even more than what i do now as its a joke. I am a joke. Ppl who get to know me eventually find out I am a joke. My life is one big joke. I want my husband to leave me, he isnt doing my sanity any good with his constant nagging and hot headediness. I cant stand to be around him for too long......actually, I cant stand to be around anyone to long. Eventually you see the lies. :'(