Thank you jfocker Its so good to know someone knows how it feels and doesnt think I am just being a psycho... It was been my old thread... I thought me and my fiance kind of got over that issue that time but here I am back to the same problem again... The time I created this thread our relation was not in the best place and when I started to push little harder with my demands, he starting distancing himself more and more and I got scared I could lose him over that thing with his ex and slowed down. Answering the questions of the previous post, the 4 kids he has are with a different woman, his ex wife. the boy of his ex gf he says he misses is not his son. He says its important to him simply because he has been civil with all his exes and just ppl around in general. He keeps telling me she is just his friend and he doesnt really care for her as a woman. He also says they dont go out together or anything like this, they keep in touch through fb, texts and emails from time to time or just see each other through their other friends occasionally. He also said she has a bf now. I am not there so I dontk now how close it is to the truth but I dont see the reason not to trust him on that. The thing is I am bpd, so he tries to assure me that it is just part of my sickness overreacting, being jealous and trying to control things. I didnt want to lose him and thought it might be really me. I tried my best to work on my jealousy, swallow my hurts and just assure myself that it is not a bid deal, but it still hurt me to see her comments on his fb page and I deleted him from my friends list and asked him to change the settings so I can not read anything on his wall. When he did so, for couple of months we were fine because I could not see their chats there and beside that part we were great. In a month I am planning to finally move to his country and we have been very excited about it, making plans for our wedding and future. Untill I recently came across his dads fb page comments where I saw her calling his parents mom and dad and flirting with my fiance commenting on his pictures and him answering her in a pretty playful tone too. I feel deceived and my heart ripped. I talked to him and told him how I feel and that I honestly tried to accept him being friends with her but I can not take it any more. I feel that its somehow wrong to force him to stop communicating to her as if I am trying to control and change him and do not tust him but I also feel like Im forcing ME to swallow what he does in order to keep him. So we are kind of at a dead end and just can not be together... This time I am pretty determined I can not deal with it, whether it is right of me or not. But I feel so devastated too because we were so close to our wedding and life together, I love him so much omg I dont know how to just walk away We have waited to be together for a long year.