allme. Post away! Sometimes it helps to be able to vent through writing, and when a frenzy pulls everything in every direction... yeah.
(I just did a bunch of stream of consciousness journaling... it was all just spinning, and I needed to get it out, you know?)

You may not want to be asked this in this moment, but do you have some grounding or calming techniques you can try? (I approach this question with trepidation, because, as much as it is the time I need them most, it's the last thing I want suggested when I'm in a frenzy! So... if that's the case for you too, sorry!)

Hugs on the med situation -- that surely can't be helping. Please try to cut yourself some slack, ok? (Easier said than done, I know...)