I met with my friend yesterday and we discussed this man I'm grieving over. She just kept trying to tell me there's no changing him and that he's incapable of a relationship, period. He did the same thing to her and she spent years trying to figure him out. She finally moved on even after he tried to get back together with her. Unfortunately, all I can think about is maybe he'll try to get back together with me. Maybe there's still a chance. Although, he'd just disappoint me again and it wouldn't work out.

I can't stop thinking about him. I love him and I can't stop thinking about ways to possibly get his attention so he'll come back to me. I know this is crazy. I feel crazy. I am depressed.

I'm also having problems with my son so this doesn't make things any better. I'm really struggling in general and starting to feel as if there's no end in sight. I feel as if I'll be alone forever and never find true happiness.

I feel like a failure as a mother and a woman. I can't make my son happy or fix his problems and I can't find a decent man. I'm very picky so this has always been a difficult task for me anyway.

I'm just tired of being alone and depressed. I want out.