I'm so sorry Peasy!

Leed gave you the best advice. Find someone you can talk to in person if you can. If you have family or friends - call them, they love you and want to know when you're having a tough time so they can help you. But if there is no one in that category for you, call your crisis line. This is what those folks are there for and they care deeply about what you're going through. We do, too.

Suicide absolutely is not the solution. Your heartbreak is temporary even though it doesn't feel like it right now. It will pass, time will heal.

Keep reaching out!