I know just how you feel .I lost my mother almost a year ago do to cancer. I think back at won't my mother has tough me an I put it to everyday that she has be gone.I take one day at a time and think about the good things and that gets me trough the days that are hard,There have be many times I wish she was here for advice,Then I think about what she has told me and I go from there. We wil always missed them but they remain in our hearts forever and they are always with you sometimes you just don't know it ,but they are. Sometimes it helps to write things down or this may sound silly but it works talk to a stuff toy ,My sister is getting help through Hospice and the sugged the stuff toy to help with my mother death. Anything i can do this drop and e mail.
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