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Originally Posted by smileytown
Wow. I do so much of the same thing. I am TRYING to get better, and I am making progress. and then my life starts to get better, and as a result I start to try new things and I freak out, because I am not where I want to be (ex I don't have as many friends, or why am I not at this level at work or school..) and then I start to HATE myself and punish and go backwards. I might have had a boyfriend, but then I started cutting and acting unhealthy around him and telling myself I didn't have a chance. And now I think he may be seeing someone else and that kills me. I keep feeling like I have lost before I really begin and as a result I do lose. I feel like I am rambling. But I love you all.
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Dude I do the same thing too! It's like whenever I start feeling good, hanging out with friends again, dating I suddenly become a nut! And within 4 months revert back, sabotage almost everything with everyone and make it so that i have to hibernate and start all over. this includes gaining 10 lbs in a week, sending rude and offensive text msgs to every guy i ever slept with, and doing ridiculous acts in public places
what to do? at least we know NOW that we self sabotage.