Me and my boyfriend are both used to hiding the fact that maybe we're not so okay, but recently we've been working on honestly telling each other. I'll ask him how he feels and he'll say okay, but we've gotten to a point where I can then say "truth?" and he'll tell me the truth. And he's gotten to the point where he can tell I'm lying and it doesn't take much after that for me to tell him. I used to scratch myself but I stopped when I got a scar and I realized I was just being kind of stupid... But still, I did it whenever I felt like I needed to. When things built up too much I would just scratch myself a bit until I felt really raw, and then I would be fine and wouldn't have to do it again for a while. But... Once I started dating him I told him I don't do it anymore and I haven't since but I need to so badly. It's killing me I really feel the need to hurt myself, and I can't because then I'd have to tell him and then I'd be worrying him. I mean, I could lie but I really don't want to. We've just started to build up from that...
This is just kind of a rant. You don't need to respond to it or anything...