If I could finantially quit I would but that probably would make things worse cause I would have more time to aggravate my husband in turn making him more likely to give up on me sooner.
I need therapy to work out lots of issues I have, don't have any recent diagnosis, years ago I was diagnosed with ADD non-hyperactive disorder, clinical depression possible Bipolar not sure on that one. This is all very old and I have not had any treatment for it for years.
In 1996 I had what I would describe as a nervous breakdown, I was pretty sure everyone was out to get me,(my exhusband was,but that is another can of worms). My therepist at the time decided I needed to be hospitalizd as I had tried to drive my truck off the road(damn rutty back roads anyway) then the night before I was going in someone cut my fences,again, and a cop came to my house and basically started to open my door to just walk in lucky for both of us I saw his badge before I bashed him in the head with a flashlight his dumb""" had left in my barn. Well went to hospital pulled it together a bit found the amazing man I am married to now and through a slew of years and losses and problems am now on a road back to were I was then and I don't want to go there, without help it could happen specialiy if I lose my family, sorry got a bit long winded there,but everyone I know who I would think of telling already knows this story.