Hang in there!! I had a serious boyfriend when I was diagnosed with bipolar and the diagnosis scared him enough to leave. I wondered at the time, who would ever love me. It's been 1 1/2 years since then and I now realized that a lot of people don't care about my diagnosis and many people love me. Maybe you should worry less about if your husband is going to love you and focus on loving yourself. Set some goals (I find this helps me pull out of my slump) and make these goals something you feel excited about. I think if you have to worry about his expectations rather than taking it a step at a time, everything becomes overwhelming. Don't believe anyone that says you are good for nothing...you're going through a tough time. Eventually everyone does, bipolar or not, so just focus on bringing yourself up!