Thank you guys so much. My T did contact me, and we had session today. She said she had a very busy morning and that the computer at her workplace was not working, so she could not email me sooner.

The actual session sucked. I was very upset and demanding. She was very firm and not very friendly.

But something good came up...we were able to talk about me isolating myself and just focusing on her and my therapy. Disconnecting from my friends and boyfriend. This was hard to hear. Because it's my weakest point.

But it also made me realize thar maybe she is not being as caring and compassionate so that I look for healthy relationships outside therapy.

I really think that she is trying to help. But it can be very frustrating at times. By the time the session was over I felt so much impotence, abandonment, and anger.

She said I could email her, but explained she wouldn't necesarily respond. She knows that it helps to vent out my feelings. And it also helps me feel she is there, even though she doesn't answer right away.

I'm still worried about being so obsessed with her and therapy. It's just that sometimes it's the only place where I feel safe. Life can be scary sometimes. It feels scary right now.