Thanks for the input. I was really tired last night so I decided not to call or text him. I go to bed earlier than he does and he didn't call or text me either. Two friends I talked to said to let him process things for a day or two and then maybe send a text are you still mad at me or something along those lines. I'm meeting with my counselor tomorrow morning and she always has good advice so looking forward to hearing what she has to say.

I'm not really that angry anymore and I miss him but at the same time it feels good to have a break. I guess another thing that is hard for me is I was married for so long we didn't really have a chance to take a break for the most part and we many times worked on the issue at hand or let them die down and move on.

Like I said he spends a majority of his time at my place so I was a bit perturbed when he started packing his things without saying he was going to stay at his place that night. I felt very upset and in a sense abandoned. I have always had abandonment issues which is something I'm working on with my counselor. He knows about these issues I have as well so it seemed even more hurtful. Yes, we weren't getting along but we couldn't really talk about it because our kids were around. It brings up fears I have that he will just up and walk away if he doesn't like something.

I guess a little time apart might be good though for both of us to process and decompress. I do have a tendency to let things build up and then get very upset plus I am sensitive so some things tend to affect me in a deeper way than others and I can tend to overreact.

Another thing I'm pondering through this stuff is that I feel loved by him but at the other time I feel a bit used. Like I've mentioned I do all of the driving and pay for groceries and a good portion of our activities. If I lend him money too he says he will pay me back but rarely does.

By nature I am a giver and I do have quite a bit more money than him, but in our earlier days he always offered to pay for things at different times. I had to bug him about it a few months ago and he started contributing more to things. I hate to say it and I feel awful for even saying it but does anyone else think he could be using me? I've never been in this situation before so I feel a little unsure. Am I grasping at straws here?