Great work Squiggle. Do you think her being close to you is uncomfortable because she can "see" you better? Also, if she is closer maybe she can penetrate your "guard"?

I have had to work on the controlling stuff too. I think we learn to do that to protect ourselves but in the end it just makes a whole lot of work for us. Learning how to not control things comes from realizing that we are safe and we don't need to do this.