((((((((((((Ambrosa))))))))))))))))) My heart really goes out to you. I know EXACTLY what it feels like to spend hours, days even, having mini panic attacks and not being able to calm down in between. I would not wish this on my worst enemy. I'm so sorry

Do you have another appointment to see your doctor? I think you said you've recently re-started medication?? Can you check in with your doc and tell him that you're still doing really badly? I think you also said you're about to re-start therapy, which is really good.

I'm thinking of you and sending comforting hugs and peaceful thoughts (((((((((((Ambrosa))))))))))))))))