I dont even know if i have the energy to be able to type this properly. i dont know how to cope, this crippling depressed state is draining everything from me. I feel so physically weak, to walk im wading through the thickest mud. I cant cry because ive cried so much.

it hurts, everything hurts. i just want to sleep, i can not face the world nor do i want to.

this is not how its meant to be im pregnant im supposed to be happy and joyful yet im completely the oppisite.

I wont harm my unborn child, but im seriously contemplating ending it once he/she is here, i cant face this cruel world, i cant do this anymore.

merely surviving to keep this child, to make them grow safely.

i feel sick im so depressed,

i really cant cope.