I have dealt with these types of thoughts more than I would like to. This last time, my T told me that either I take myself in or she would call someone who would, meaning the cops. Eventhough I knew they wouldn't keep me because I didn't have a plan. I have a hard time pushing them away, sometimes it seems like nothing I do can make them go away. When I get to that point, it can become a safety risk, because that is when I start going into making a plan. Since this last time, I had been attempting to deal with them for a few days, worried my T. That is why she said what she did about the cops. I know that she would have called them because she has done it before. I try to stay busy to keep my mind off those thoughts, for it is when I am not doing anything that I really hear them loud and clear.