I can so relate to what you have said lynde and barrett. Struggled with both with others and masturbation and no down it had nothing to do with being sexually repressed OCD or thinking sex is evil. It 's a fix and so hard to explain to those who have not been there. I am so grateful for the lady I met who was able to be open about her sex addiction cuz I was ready to kill myself thinking it was the only way to stop it for me. I about lost my husband. That's all I can say about it at this point. Just wanted you to know you are not alone and yes it can get better. You can pm me if you like.
mlyn