{{{{Eskie}}}}

I can empathize with parts of what you're going through.

A week and a half ago I was driving on a four lane road. I was in the right lane. I'm not sure where my head was at, but I heard a loud BLAST on a car horn which jerked me back to the present and found I had drifted into the left lane! Thank God the other car wasn't speeding so he *could* beep. (Makes me shiver what could have happened, but I do believe in God and know He was watching over me.

Next time I was driving (maybe a day or so later), I found myself drifting into another lane - AGAIN!! This time I caught myself doing it - no other cars were around.

Then I ran a red light!!! (Again, thank God no one came through the intersection and this was a busy one.

During this time I had some other weird side effects - the most curious one being that I was "talking backwards" or stuttering, or couldn't think of the word I was looking for or other times using the wrong word for what I meant. (Example: Say at the computer store I would ask "How much is that yarn" instead of "How much is that keyboard." My balance was off too - each time I went to the grocery or Wal*Mart, I would run into someone's cart or knock down a store display...and I was walking slowly and trying to be aware of each step.

A few days later I had an appt. with my T. When I told her the above she called and made an immediate appointment with my pdoc. T. said this now puts me in the category of perhaps harming myself or others. Went to pdoc. He tweaked my meds a bit and told me to hang in there with the meds because it takes awhile for the side-effects to disappear. And he put me on driving restrictions.

I feel like I'm under "house arrest" but I'm sleeping (a LOT) but the garbled speech has gone away.

I know when it's said to me I rarely believe it, but from where I'm sitting, you are remarkable and emotionally strong. I think if I'd gone through the car situation you did, I would have just sat down on the side of the road and cried.

I feel a certain bond with you...maybe both of us being animal lovers. What gets me out of the bed in the morning is tending to my cat's needs.

Please pm me or send a Yahoo msg (address in my profile) if you ever want to talk.

*HUGS*